hallelujah. the sun is out and the weariness packed up and left to vacation in some other person’s brain this morning. the gemini moon has arrived and i am feeling inspiration descend. please, sun, stay out out today, i beg you. i need you. i do feel a tad bit desperate for your light. weird and heavy dreams all night. been obsessed with the show “mr. robot” and when i get this obsessed i wish i had a job writing for television. i wish my days were spent creating a masterpiece. i think this show is a masterpiece. i long to be part of making such a stellar creation. thank you, sam esmail, for making this show. i am feeling so much better physically and emotionally and need to because my twelve day gauntlet is coming up. school internship school, with no break. maybe when it’s over spring will begin to reveal herself. pulled cards on skype last night with a friend and the cards showed it is best to wait to move. something more than just finding a place is approaching. i can sniff destiny on the wind. i think i dreamed about moving to new york city again. stand clear of the closing doors please. some places get under your skin. some people nest deep in your being too. venus goes retrograde today. or, it did already, early in the am. time to reflect upon what i value again. time to understand what matters to me now. emergent style. i don’t have much to say. blog is still feeling challenging. i hope for more poetic writing to return. for me and for you. i know my blogs have been totally boring these days.