another 10 minutes to write cause school is still happening. today is the big day in this thing called a country. will we make it through? it’s up to us. i going to keep showing up as a loving force and allow emergence to guide me. i feel drained from school and it’s hard to type words. really hard. i don’t want to. i am resistant. i want to write but just not in this forum. i want to sing too. expression expression. fire fire. dancing shadows on the cave wall is what it’s gonna be for a while. blame and hatred are gonna rise high in the hearts of people who come from both walks of life. as this place gets even more divided. the division that started this place has never been healed. you gotta transform it from the inside out. within and without. there’s gonna be a lotta spittle flying from the mouths of many men and the women can no longer pretend to be submissive, no longer pretend to be pleasing. the sky is gonna open up wide and down will come no man to save nobody or no force to take away the pain without everyone learning. we’re all gonna need to face ourselves, yeah, we are all gonna need to face our personal hells in order to turn around and face the collective hell. this collective hell-soup dripping negligence over the fresh heart of an innocent creature who will also become indoctrinated. chaos soup mean trust a larger force that comes through you and me. we are the saviors of you and me. we are the saviors of you and me. shite, gotta go.