learning through contrast has been my jam this past week or so. specially in the romantic love department. this leo full moon phase is about honoring our individual expression. i am understanding my temperament and desires more. i am appreciating my temperament and desires more…and i am finding deeper peace within. what’s cool is, the more i stay true to me, the more i see attractions and connections for what they truly are. when i stay true to me, treating myself as my own true love…i am left with no wondering, no projecting, no creating false love to be a disguise over attachment which masks insecurity, no trying to get validated to mask wounds, and no putting men on pedestals or seeing them through deluded eyes or rose glasses. what a fucking relief to not need a man to love me in order for me to feel love and security…to have found it within. all the years of self work really did make fruit. i am not saying i am content. this body is made for loving another. but the part that was wounded long ago, developing neurosis around romantic love, is healed, leaving me smack dab in the present moment, clean of ulterior motives. to be able to state this is a great achievement. i don’t mean to gloat or show off. believe me, i am the most embarrassing person this side of the veil…i’m just recognizing my growth under the leo full moon phase, which highlights personal achievements. it’s balancing. went to see the x files at central cinema last night. how much fun to watch it among fans, all of us laughing and clapping at the same time. the sentiment in the room thick enough to pocket. i still love mulder and skully. smoking man inhaling through his neck tube. the integrity of the characters. such great acting too. the sky is sorta blue this morning. it feels tepid. a little of this, a little of that. aligned with the temperance card i am teaching about tonight. school starts early in the morning tomorrow. a brand new long term plan. roots. not ready to speak about that. feeling that swell of waiting. mercury also goes direct today. yes! back to my usual verbosity. no more feeling mentally at a loss. the waterfall can gush again.