first morning back, already philosophical…

first morning back in seattle in 9 days.  slept with the heat on, which will cost a fortune, but my place was a freezer when i walked in at 9 pm.  traveling is a trip, pun intended.  for days i was in vegas, in my parent’s spotless desert home, watching hours of “shameless”, taking jogs in the sun, eating breakfast with everyone, and i still woke up at 6 am this morning, as a result.  but now i am back in seattle mode.  burned sage, turned on the colored bulbs, dressed for the cold, and returned to silence.  it’s astounding how much place molds the personality, the mood, the thinking.  in vegas, my mind moves quickly, i feel much more active and clear.  in seattle, i am a twisting tree branch, soaking up the clouds and moon.  when you continually travel between two places, the contrast becomes distinguished.  for now, i will keep doing so.  life changes mean a big switch of the internal gears.  to write a concise essay, not a poetic blog.  to call institutions and ask for transcripts.  to collect letters of recommendation.  to think in terms of psychology verses shamanism (again, round two.)  being a translator is something i feel pretty comfortable with.  always been a hybrid.  the hard part, is getting more linear and left brained, after so many years operating in the right brain and higher planes.  this is my change.  what’s yours?  are you recently single, or married, or a parent?  starting a business on your own?  diagnosed with a sudden life threatening illness?  lose a loved one?  lose your home?  changes can go in either direction.  we build our hopes and dreams, and life takes them away from us.  this is nature.  nature is growth and decay, life and death.  hence, the emotions of joy and despair take turns in the heart, are you ok with this?  spirituality is the aspect of life where you become ok with this…with the cycles of life and feelings.  even atheists are spiritual.  they don’t believe in god or metaphysical phenomenon, but in their idea of what life is, they find their own version of peace with the impermanence and chaos of physical being.  we all do.  or we don’t.  i could have been one of those people who destroys their own life, via through living or dying.  i was programmed for it.  fought against it, and got myself to the other side.  what we do here while alive, is pretty amazing.  the money part is a side effect.  how we treat ourselves and others is the main event.  i say this, as i allow myself to change, to desire a new income system, to take myself out of the bohemian clothing.  a new value system for a new life cycle.  currently building.  knowing life will come to take everything i build, away…