page turner alright…

it might be time to return to vegas, and soon.  will know more by the end of the month.  it’s nearly impossible to write this blog right now.  but pushing through the resistance.  thinking only about where my next home will be, and the possibility of returning to my old home.  being near my folks sounds wonderful.  the sun every day will make me happier.  keeping a regular exercise and yoga practice will be easier.  i bet i’d really catapult my health.  could get a two bedroom apartment and have guest room.  could get a pet too.  i feel this might really be right decision and it has me reeling, cause i have been feeling so attached to the northwest, which is likely because deep inside, i know i am leaving.  life is always a series of unexpected events, appearing while the mind is busy making other plans…they say.  but some things remain true to the plan.  i will write my next book.  hope for a partner.  paint.  take pictures.  see friends.  maybe go back to school.  probably not.  blah blah blah.  i cannot explain the way my brain is working today.  off the hook.  need a bath.  need onto the mat, but i am mooning and not so sure about that.  what’s underneath all these external decisions, is an internal value system perking up.  values love, will travel.  will go anywhere i need to go.  can usually pack up everything i own into a suitcase and two boxes.  got a trickster for a guide, and heart full of yapping foxes.  now i am just rhyming to rhyme.  there will be time…there will be time (t.s elliot you know the score).  insomnia last night.  dark sky again today, making me feel phosphorescent and light, like….where is the ground?  need the sun.  the need is profound.  family is profound.  freedom is profound.  better to end on the word profound…