dark day, dark song…

the sky is dark this morning.  like a photo with the brightness turned way down.  it’s not dishwater brown though, or even grey…more like a pale bluish white, with only half-light inside.  seattle.  got the fan going to avoid mold.  got incense burning to bring a good mood.  coffee, space heater, another day, in another aftermath of shootings.  what i know to do is to keep hope and love alive and radiating from me, with the volume turned up high.  found out yesterday at work, amidst giving readings.  the cards are speaking different.  my last client’s energy helped bring me clarity about why (vibration creates external destiny extra strong right now, events are not pre-set or black and white).  this neptune-saturn square is speaking to me, and happening till sometime in 2017.  when there’s a transit, the bigger planet is the one schooling or costuming the smaller.  so neptune is schooling/costuming saturn.  squaring is like the person in your life that helps you grow even though they chafe your constitution.  so the way i feel it is…that as saturn inflates in sagittarius, through more fanatical thinking about the meaning of life, leading to violence in the world…or through more clinging to ideas about who we are and what is right in our own life, and experiencing limitations and obstacles as a result…neptune comes in to say….forgive those who disappoint/hurt or don’t live up to what you wanted them to, love unconditionally both the joy and the painful experiences of life, accept both the dark and light aspects of nature, don’t try to weed out what is not comfortable from existence, and let go of any rigid/preset ideas about life as you know it.  this square is asking for love to transcend saturn’s limitations, and for as long the mind is held in the prison of judging/demonizing/repressing the shadow, while simultaneously glorifying/sugar coating/avoiding reality to stay only in a false light of false truth…violence will continue…as will falling off the throne in your own life.  instead, can you look at your own shadow and integrate it back into love?  clarity and truth are revealed when this is done.  big topic, i am skimming you, and just discussing the psychological aspect to a very large and complex issue, i don’t claim to be any expert on.  i only have expertise about the internal self.  as i continue to clean the mirror of my own heart, i also hold my inner vision of peace on earth with humans, no matter how long it takes, no matter how many obstacles…and even with knowing it’s all cyclical, nature produces both light and shadows, that the human race is capable of transcending these barbaric times once and for all.  meanwhile…my dreams were dark as frig last night, i don’t recall them, but i recall the feeling, and how deeply i slept…as if my individual consciousness dove into the collective shadow.  best get on the mat and do my body prayers to align with nature, get out of the head, and connect deeply with earth.  dark day with a dark song, i love you.