squares, sun, and freezing…

freezing sunny weather.  neptune squaring saturn.  the freezing part is saturn.  the sunny part is neptune.  the tension between a vision and practical reality, between dreams and the body.  obligations and desires.  playing with this tension, as i write in my ice box apartment, staring into the blue sky.  the way i see it, neptune, being the larger force, is schooling saturn, not the other way around.  neptune is telling saturn to transcend old limiting beliefs and saturn is having a hard time with this, within.  we want to say, “this is how it is.”  but is it?  and..could it be different?  i have a close relationship with neptune cause it hangs out with mercury all the time, making my mouth continually spout visions from neptune’s watery caves in the seventh dimension.  saturn hangs out all alone in the bottom half of my chart, in the house of light hearted expression and creativity, making me feel the seriousness of everything not serious.  this is serious!  no it’s not.  yes it is.  both.  gemini is how my limitations express themselves.  i communicate karma and ping pong back and forth inside duality’s tennis match.  i know this blog is a word play mish-mash.  releasing meaning to open the hatch for new meaning to fill up my noggin.  i don’t wanna calcify, you know?  got better things to do, stories to write, love to give you.  heading down to portland will bring me into heart this weekend.  out of the cosmic wonderland and into the shire i go, on the bolt bus dontcha know.  every time i go there, i lose my ability to think abstractly.  down there, it’s all about comfort, affection, and the simple tangible things in life.  which is why i don’t want to move there.  but maybe it will feel different this time.  i am open to all of my relationships with cities, people, myth, and ideas, to become different when they are ready to change, leave, end, transform, or grow.  clinging to nothing but a strong devotion to love and truth.  spirit dreams it up and nature makes it so….