tragedy and keeping an open heart…

the tragedy in paris is all over facebook and it’s a weird feeling.  why are some people dead an other putting french flags over their profile pictures?  you truly never know what the day will bring.  death is always an option for any of us, from accident to illness to murder.  it hurts to write that sentence.  there’s so much violence in our world, making death even more prevalent than need be.  grief will now loom and violence will increase maybe, it feels like it, but i hope i am wrong.  people are saying it’s senseless violence, but it makes sense to me.  brainwash and dogma turn innocent humans into killing machines. the human world is currently a hell realm.  the very foundation of society is rooted in negative control.  those who have our best interest at heart are not the leaders, religion has been confiscated by counterfeit dogma, humans learn to be divided, me against you or us against them, the sexes are divided with the female oppressed still in many places, sexual orientations and skin colors are marginalized, the distribution of wealth is clearly creating mass psychological slavery and poverty, abuse is normalized, and it goes on and on.  violence is to be expected, even if you live a happy peaceful life in the shire.  we are all in this together.  it’s horrible,  we all know it, and we all live in cognitive dissonance about it, going on with our personal lives, engaging in the hellish system, so we can survive and live in comfort and happiness for ourselves and our family.  out of a deep feeling of helplessness, we focus only on ourselves and our immediate circle of loved ones.  many of us have jobs helping the community in several ways, and we have activists, people really are trying to help, i don’t mean to ignore that aspect.  we are all working on it, trying to do better.  many of us are, anyways.  i don’t want to sound pessimistic, only realistic.  i also saw on facebook, anger about how this level of violence is happening in the middle east but nobody’s crying out for them, but when it happens in europe everybody pays attention.  this might be true, but it seems to me, dishonoring to those who died in paris yesterday, to turn their deaths into a fight about who people care about.  if you have died by murder and violence, there is a tremendous pain involved, and yes, lots of people who die this way go ignored, and everybody deserves equal observance.  another human weakness.  it’s pretty much hard to write about anything else this morning.  i did have a really creative fun night, being inspired, and hashing out some issues with a friend on the path, who is a mirror.  my heart is tripped out, that i was enjoying myself last night, while others were grieving the loss of their murdered loved ones.  murder is beyond the pain of death itself.  i don’t wish to speak about it, we all feel it.  the injustice, the loss.  sorrow.  keeping the heart open might be a challenge for many of us.  gonna do my best to make up for those who are having trouble.  to grow my love and awareness larger each day.  person by person is how to change this fucked up and unjust system.  gonna do my part while i still have a body to live in….