it’s samhain. my favorite day. thinnest veil. magic. feeling it. the ground is as buoyant as sky, for both are illusion. dreamed intense, but the only one i remember is showing my friend the weather for the future, on my phone, in the 40’s for years on end. asking her if she’s ready for it. the theme of the feelings from dreaming being, adjusting to darker times. lifted from out of our perfect comfort zone. so much of the spiritual practice i do is about being able to respond to all of life on the outside, without affliction. non-affliction through the opposites. this means the same loving open heart through the good times and bad, though sunny and rainy, money or no money, relationship or no relationship, success or no success, win or lose, etc. much like marriage vows, showing up with love for life, no matter what. love loves for no reason and has no conditions. this to me feels like grace. allowing me to walk right into the intimacy of this illusion, more intimate than life without a body it seems. the illusion of separateness creates also, an illusion of intimacy that equals the separateness. these opposites of high contrast, are both created by having a body. ah, too esoteric for blog. take it down a notch. watching the rain slink down the window pain. loving this magical morning. steeping in the good vibes, not much on the mind, other than esoteric musings. feeling my heart rise open. love. love love love love love love love. too much for this body to contain almost. glad i will be reading at the shop today. giving. got to give, got to give. feeling like a big blue wave wanting to deluge everybody and everything in love. it’s the realest feeling i know. let me root here, thin veil. let this feeling be my one root always, as the carnival of life mirrors my resonation. a mirror of endless compassion. on the knees with gratitude to be here this morning in the heart. not in a scorpionic introverted mood and feeling zero reservation. it really is all on the inside. put me here, there, or anywhere, it’s all the same when looking inside. you can take the girl out of the loving situation, but you can’t take the loving situation out of the girl. samhain blessings unfurl. today i don’t care about where i will move, whom i will partner with, who the character of the book is, or how to be stronger than fear. all “how to” brain activity and future needing to know is smeared like finger paint onto canvas by a child’s whimsical imagination. today i center in this love-wisdom, and spin it outward like a galaxy into the hearts of all who feel. finis.