my dear friend sent me a book, “gene keys” by richard rudd, and it’s rocking my world. basically you get a free profile online, with your birth information, and then you read about your purpose, love, true self, unlocking the dna potential of your being. this information is life changing for me, and i have only just begun to explore. too much to write in blog, and boring for others to read, but the part i want to share is about how my life’s work is rooted in every single person coming into my life for a reason, a lesson, and that if i don’t learn it, the lessons repeat. this is just a small part of it…and this is a theme for all of us, on one hand, but it’s highlighted in my life’s work, as a very key aspect. i realize lately that my current lesson is to stay the course of my heart’s vision, protecting it, being the hermit in balance with all the extroversion of my day to day, and not letting external life, or the sway of others, change my course, my vision, the truth radiating within like a sun. i’m taking things to the mythic level. everything i go through, and what we all go through, is archetypal. i was explaining this to a friend last night. i have a lot of friends, and i am connected to a lot of people. more than most. it’s just how it rolls with me in this life. therefor, each day i am inundated with hearing about a lot of people’s journeys. from marriages, to pregnancies to deaths to illnesses to break-ups to new jobs…each and every day, i listen to and collect so many stories, that there is no way i can ever pay full attention to any one person, or any one story, in and of itself. my close friends know this about me and accept it, thank goodness. because my heart belongs to the world itself, and i really cannot be there fully for any one person, because i am here for so many people. i am here for the fractal pattern of us all. due to this being my reality, i don’t see any life event or story, from a personal point of view. i see all of my experiences and everybody else’s as archetypal…how we are all playing a part in a grand myth. my empathy is connected to myth living as the soul of every individual. we are all connected, and i am a connector of the internal infrastructure. being able to see and understand the largest picture there is, is my gig. when i am fully tapped into this perspective, and my full potential is being activated, i feel bliss. when i sink into the small picture, caught in my desires and stories of lack and struggle from a personal and delusional perspective, bliss is replaced by a dull and constant ache, misery, confusion, and the lowering of my vibration. so clear is this difference, the contrast cannot be refuted. experience is my greatest teacher. truth be told: when you are living from your inner truth and love, whatever that means for your particular life path and soul in the grand myth, happiness is the result, even through grief, struggle, illness, loss, or whatever external thing is happening. but when you lose connection to your inner truth and love, misery is the result, however it manifests. happiness is not a continual smile. it’s a feeling of flow and rightness within, and it is the natural result of being connected and in harmony with all of life, nature, the fractal pattern, god, goddess, whatever you want to call it. today i am steeping in a heightened sense of happiness though. not peace or the calm of the ordinary, but a feeling of bliss. i feel manic. so manic that my eyes are seeing blurry. the energies of earth are shifting big time right now too. everyone i talk to is feeling it. big awakening right now. can you feel it? i’ll deal with mania well today. gonna go walk in the sun, up to the food co-op, get some healthy food before work. if work is busy that will be good, i have so much to give today. that’s the real secret behind this manic energy, to give it to others, to be a presence of light and joy, to shine and radiate. i feel so connected to everybody today, after reading this book, to the oneness of us…being one, playing the many. exuberance galore. better hurry out the door. put on my ocean jasper to ground. peacock ore over my heart, clearing out the muck. thank you, life, world, this body. i feel so fucking grateful today. wish i could sing my heart out. sunshine fill me up! happy saturday. love love.