there’s a lot of letting go happening. and authentic being is coming through. what’s being shed is fear and denial stories, along with all their fancy accouterments…and authentic being coming through is…well, it’s what i am. anyhow, shit’s hard to explain. most beautiful day today. laying on grass in near spring weather, on the hill, looking deep into the aqua city sky. feeling the sky so much. one with the sky. woke up with a tender heart. crying for no reason. feeling everything at maximum levels, the very air doing tango on my cheeks…walking through the streets, making medicine bags, sitting on mamma tree, smiling at certain people passing by (who get it.) (like they did at the cafe.) gifting two stones to two women who understand and feel it too. connecting through stones. stones stones stones. take me over. currently gold sheen obsidian, obsidian arrow head, rose quartz, copper, apatite, aragonite, amethyst, moldavite, andalusite. to name a few. aligning all bodies to right here, right now. gridding to the directions. making ancestral trees with sticks, both vertical and horizontal. building a vision with pen on paper. intelligent design. got my mind made up, got my mind made up. violet, plum blossom, and musk. sag paneer. signs of travel. india, bali, mexico, whidby island. need to take a journey somehow. but the gumption still aint here. feeling change crest and foam up, rising in the eyes like high tide…and feeling change mirrored in everybody i listen to, in person, and on the internet. the feeling of preparing for what is next. listening to two sets of people at the park talk about the end of humanity, and feel a strong “no” inside. no more meat in the belly. makes me more sensitive. and right when i was a little bit scared about just how sensitive i am, my sister reminds me, through an article… that it’s ok to be this way. we are meant to be this way. now, lets take over the world, and bring magic, love, harmony reason, mystery, joy, acceptance compassion, forgiveness, and peace…without pointing the finger outside, know that we are the god we seek.